So word has it that someone has discovered my online journal. My PUBLIC online journal. Big surprise that someone would discover this being's as though its public.

Then once its discovered whoever this person is decides to show it to my ex step father. Wonderful! Then I'm accused of all sorts of things that I never actually posted on here. The accusations werent said directly to me, but yet to my mother, whom was upset by all of it, but only because the way that he told her wasnt nice.

Let me bring it to everyone's attention incase you didnt know I'M FUCKIN GAY! Yes I'm gay and I dont give a shit what anyone thinks about that. Ok thats one thing out of the way.

One other thing I can bring to everyone's attention is that most EVERYONE knows this. Of course there are people that I choose not to tell (Ahem my ex step father) but thats only because I know that they might fly off the handle like he did, and blow things way out of proportion.

So today because my mother was upset, I went back and read through 4 years of my crap. This took me nearly 8 hours to do, and I just finished it. I did this to make sure that the accusations of me writing things like "I like it up the ass hole" werent true, and of course to my no surprise...they werent. I also heard that these things were printed out for my mother to read? Thats bullshit because I knew before I even went back and read all of my posts that I didnt write anything to that affect.

There is also talk that I have dated a black guy! Oh gees everyone look out now! Ready for this? I have dated 2 (technically) and talked to many more! Wow amazing huh? Fucking amazing that I would talk to other people...notice I said PEOPLE! Which is what a black person is right? A person just like you and me.

Let me take the time to point out that the last guy I seriously dated was black. We dated for over a year. My mother and father met him, and others in my family. Also he graduated from LSU with a degree in Political Science.

Wanna know what that tells me? That he is smarter than the person that exposed all of this to my ex step father, and my ex step father himself. He got an education beyond highschool, and is going to do something with his life. This applies to all the other black people I have talked to, or considered dating also.

Now on to the fact that the concern for the well being of my little brother has been brought into this. Heaven forbid that the well being of my little brother be affected by something he is to young to understand. I might also point out that I will NEVER bring a boyfriend around him, nor the rest of my family. I never intend to. I also never intend on discussing anything about this part of my life with him, or even letting him know it exsists. If he finds out thats on him. I wont talk about it.

Last but not least I want to leave a little something for my exposer. I dont know who you are that had the nerve to show this to my ex step dad, and I really could care less. I just want to say FUCK YOU! If you are someone that I thought I might be able to trust, you certainly lost all of it if I find out who you are.

I use this online journal in confidence that I can trust the people I let read it, and the people that might find it. However I also am careful with what I say. So really I should have nothing to worry about. I know everything I have posted, and today when I went back and read every single post, I remembered writing them like it was yesterday.

This is my life, welcome to it, read away cause I dont give a flying fuck what you or anyone else thinks!